Thankful Thursday

 This week has been a good one for me. I think it's mostly down to my renewed positivity, which seems to fuel my creativity. Being creative isn't something that I can turn on like a tap, I need to be inspired and this week I'm thankful that the inspiration bug has well and truly bitten me. Firstly, I made a little surprise illustrated postcard for my friend Caroline, who's birthday is today. Caroline featured on my post about our afternoon tea at Betty Blythe's a few weeks ago. Our love for tea was one of the first things we bonded over so it only seemed right to create a tea related illustration.

I've also finished off last weeks art class drawing of a crushed coke can. That's rare, often because I'm just not well enough to do it, or I go off the idea and want to bin it! 

I've also been creative in the kitchen, making really easy clean and healthy peanut butter cups topped with sea salt. I've been munching on these every evening, and whenever I feel dizzy. What a great excuse to eat chocolate!

Tomorrow is my birthday so I will be moving on to cake and all things unhealthy for the day. - I can't wait! For the first time since being ill I'm not dreading my birthday. For the last four birthdays I've felt cheated and scared. The last time I was 100% well I was 19, and for every birthday since I've felt like my age should be on hold. Even joking saying I'm 19 again and won't be turning 20 until I'm better. It sounds only fair when you can't live your life, right? Its impossible though, time waits for no one and I've realised in the last few weeks how much I have changed and grown as a person since I was 19. My world might not be what I expected, or wanted, but there is a lot of happiness to be found within it. I still find ageing with chronic illness scary but it's not making me dread my birthday. I'm actually looking forward to it.

Emma Xx